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You were the inspiration,
You are the inspiration,
You would always be the inspiration,
I remember writing you letters as a young girl when you were posted away from home. We used to exchange letters and how subtly you used to correct me for my grammatical errors. Today when I am writing you after almost three decades I feel very overwhelmed. You have been my best friend who has always healed and inspired me in many ways. We have been soulmates for many lives, I know we will meet again in new costumes, I am sure we will heal each other again the way we used to do when you were here with us. This day 2 yrs ago (14th July 2018), we lost you to cruel cancer. Journey of losing you was so painful and detrimental. It shook our base and we all took a long time to recover from the trauma of suddenly losing you. I guess none of us were prepared. You were so fit and healthy even at 82, that you can give run to a 40 yrs old. I guess that is another tough lesson you taught us on how to let go and make peace with truth.
You are still with me everyday, guiding me, guarding me and encouraging me to do more. Now that I step over to the next decade of my life, I would like to dedicate my life to the greater purpose of being here. I would like to extend a helping hand to the world which is in so much turbulence now. I was lucky to have you as a guide all my life and that is the very reason why I stay so firm and grounded even during such tough times. Your physical absence does hurt but I feel you around, and I am confident with your support and guidance I will be able to reach out and help as many souls as possible. World is breaking down into pieces with humanity being abused in several ways. Pandemic attack, natural disasters, racism, overload of work, mental issues and what not. World is not the same as the one you left 2 yrs ago.
Your deeply inculcated sanskars still help me to navigate in everyday situations. Whenever I feel low or lost, you whisper again what you always used to say “hariye na himmat, bisaariye na Ram” which means don’t lose Hope and never forget God! Your way of living was highly respected and appreciated by everyone who ever came in touch with you. You inspired people very deeply, everyone still remembers you fondly as a Principled Man who was always Contented with Life. You never ran behind money, name or fame. Still you were graced with everything because you followed a very spiritual life.
Your book which is a compilation of your writings still motivates us to live a life of purpose.
Your life was not easy, you were faced with so many challenges but you navigated with
righteousness. Always took a dharmic path even if it was tough, even if you
saw no hope on that path, still you kept faith and at the end always received beautiful outcomes.
I fondly recall all your teachings and try to live on them. Though it's hard to mention all your teachings but four of them are worth mentioning which you taught by being a living example: purity of money, modesty in living, contentment with self and compassion in courage!
I am trying to ensure that I follow your footsteps. Soon after you left , I was elected as Board of Directors at AA IITK, I missed you a lot that time. I know you would have been so proud and happy. I also received two awards for work in social space, missed taking you along with me like always. I am looking forward to extending my work in more meaningful ways and God gave me direction. Through DeekshaLife I want to heal people's past wounds and give them hope to live more purposefully. DeekshaLife is dedicated to you because you taught me the real meaning of Deeksha and life both!
In your loving presence,
Your Little Girl
Deeksha